Love is Born

I see you all that you are, the green that shines through the brown in your eyes
I knew you before you knew me,  I saw you as you were becoming a man, yes
These secrets I hold in me dear, near and true, some would say are crazy lies
You opened me up stole my heart I allowed it to happen, this is glory
Time brought us here,  destiny will finish this story, love encapsulates ploy
As a mountain you stand as a River I flow beside you calm and peaceful, with you
Fields of wheat we run in, under your tree you lay full as I dance under the stars
Marveling, you sing to me a call of strength,  power, knowledge and wisdom
Chanting angels high above the clouds watch as our love unfolds, the night blossoms
Eternity is ours as is the world, tantalizing whispers descend off your tongue, believe
The captive is captivated, the house is now with a foundation, our circle is complete
Lion and lioness sleep well,  King and Queen unite, the people rise up,  respect,  love is born

Each New Day

I lay watching you sleep knowing the secret inside you I will keep
The greatness that fills you the future we are building, thus we share
I feel free in you as I sleep on the wind carried by the wings of angels
Time has stopped but a moment for this truth to know to reckon and begin
The sun taken light to earth holding her in gravity, lovingly guiding to motion
New life begins with but a breath causing all things to collide into orbit
Our heartbeats are now one our souls connected meshed together as fine steel
Although I'm apart from you, I'm aware of your presence as the sparrow comes each day
I still feel my hands in your hair mine draped across your chest, I taste your breath
I keep the memory of your arms around me tight through the night, this I love
The days sometimes seem long and nights impossible and then, oh thy words so sweet
I long to comfort you to have you hold me to see me, yet I sense you see me still
The dawn finds me searching reaching then I feel the warmth of the sun on me
Oh for love of King who finds me fair, hold your Queen do not despair my steps be sure
My love for thee is true, my heart is full my mind clear and free ever ready on thee
Tenderly I think back on the taste of your kisses and the gentleness of your love
Our creating of love the perfection of it all made for us to fulfill our destiny
I absorb your light as earth taking in nourishment and then releasing my essence
Night finds me dreaming and longing for the day when nothing holds us apart again
I wake each morning and know that the sparrow comes, I feel you everywhere I am
Each new step I make brings me closer to you and this journey we have embarked upon.

I was 10 years old My name is Jasmine McLain

Screaming, no one hears the pain I feel, the sneers
Mocking yelling teasing, God, pleasing, am I not to thee?
Oh not today these wretched noises fill my head I cry, I pray
Pain inside to great, why do they hate can't they see I'm weak
Begging please, no one cares,do you see they just stare,at me
Beseeching thee I call upon you, knowing that you'll rescue me,when
Great is this torment,  though a child Am I they kill me daily, I cry
Mommy my words won't come,thier hate so powerful darkens me
Fear in the night freightens me, freedom calls from up above, angels
Daddy please, can't you see a secret hidden in me, they persecute daily
Why, I ask but know one cares, I just need to breath free air,  sing
Please understand my pain, I cannot bare anymore take me now to rest
What have I done to them,  to you,  Why, why,  how this eats me up alive
I feel so small inside so scared and all alone, I just want to go home
If superman could fly he would rescue me before I die, bless my soul
If I had a magic wand I would turn myself into miss popularity,  then ;)
Oh pain pinching me stealing life from under me,  killing,  beating me
Oh you hateful lies robbing me of my pride you don't know how I tick inside
These beast of girls who run the schools think your pretty,  think your cool
Evil is your name spit out of the whore of babylon, shame to you for my pain
I want to live but cannot fight can't breathe to scared to leave my shell
Please forgive me God I come to thee, angels bare me over I come to thee
Mommy please don't cry for me,  I can't be free here anymore, you will see
I'm playing running with others now, no one hurts me anymore It's okay
Oh,  tell them all  I see them still, but I forgive them of their ignorance
Tell Daddy it's okay super heroes are real,  they were just off that day.


In memory of an angel of love Jasmine Mclaine 11/14/2011
Please raise awareness against bullying

Standing

Standing upon mine earth I, Queen bow before my King basking in his glory, the Sun
At the waters edge ankle deep I look to him as he gently guides me step by step to him
Longing to be waist deep swooning, lost, drowning, as he smiles drawing me nearer
He calls to me from upon his rock, as I cross he joins me in my steps lavishly in sync
Hearing the angels sing, eagles taking flight, doves in motion, now is the time, I merge
A voice as the wind, strong and true, his word faithful beckons to me, is sound, clear
The stars fill the night as the new moon rises, bonds made as the ocean water rises, mine
Great things built upon to grow for long has the garden been waiting on nourishment, time
Eternal is the flame of hope our love our work, together our path forever to unity as one
Down by the waters edge I am standing bowing before my King, waiting drawn by his stature
Endless the galaxies, so be the days I carry our love,weeping only as the great Welkin joyful tears of love.
 As the stars dance for me the moon swells a glow so fair, Ti's the Sun I bath in with glory bestowed upon
The beating of my heart, writing of my words, my love you hear as staining air through atmosphere
Hallowed words, sacred bond thus we share, passion blessed, ensuing fire breathing each other, life

Discernment

You see color, I see Love, through mine eyes there is no hate
You see judgment, I see spirituality, freedom of your bondage
The beating drums resonate throgh my body of ages past, calling
Souls crying people dying hearts bleeding needless waste, death
Frailty of mind camping in the inner parts of youth, untold, forgot
Rising, to be pushed down mocked and spit upon, oh the wicked
How they spill the blood of many, how their blood runs cold, empty
My spirit crys for the weak my sword stands against the wicked to fight
Yea though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death I fear not
I amongst my people stand against the evil tread the battle lands, victory
Giving back that which you took in ways you cannot touch, though you seek
My blood is mingled with many, my color is not defined you cannot know me
My soul is of the highest and belongs to the king for I am his Queen, love
Tears only for joy,  for the purpose of the needy, thus I weep no more
Transgressors paying in due time, greed begats greed, hate eats the wicked
The drums they beat a new song still coming up, rising building, united
My People everywhere, a song we share in harp in chord the drums, in clapping
I hear you, I see you like an eagle carrying your beat to me I feel you
Your rhythm in my feet I walk, I dance in my soul, stories from the grave I keep
Untold memories we share, my burdens calling me from the hemisphere, always
I feel it all I see it all from ancient days of times present haunting me
Rest in peace, the angels watch the spirits watching, warriors fighting now
The time is nearly come when freedom will reign, peace for all, death not in vain
Your shoes I will walk in, your hands I will hold, your eyes I will look through, know this
My journey hast just begun, yet it seems a life time ago, a promise to see it through I will keep

No fear

I have no fear in loving you
In you is only love so true
Days seem long, waiting, dreaming
Promises made promises to keep
Only tears of joy we two shall weep
Your arms around me while We sleep
Even as the sun is, so you are to me
As the sparrow calls, so our love blossoms
Rain trickles down the window as I watch you lay
Quitely the dawn brings forth beauty of a new day
Embracing together what leith ahead, no fear we keep
~for my love Always~

Breathing You ~

As I breathe you into me I know I will be complete.
I feel you come to me in the midnight hour as I sleep
Passion carried on waves of Poseidon a mighty love
This igniting fire burning none can quench, it is come
My smiles though they are many I have only one for you
My eyes cry only tears of love,tiny drops of Jupiter it seems
Embracing the moments we share waiting for day of truth
You,my sun have warmed my flower giving it life,it blooms
The fairest of angels sing for our love as stars shine above
My meadow is moist with dew,comely I wait on thee until the hour
As you lay under your tree waiting for me I am there already
Taken by your ways for they are my ways forever, becoming one
My love is your love,your love is my love, this is our time.

MY People

Waking daily I hear my people, they cry pain, I walk out wanting change, today I have a dream
Rules made, children bath in glory of hate, gang signs,  streets of battle violence and crime not my vision.
My people cry,  yea they cry help me, so,  goes the stranger in the night the lost they fight, blood spills
My time is now,  though I come from the fields,  the jungles, hills of the city,  the wrong side of right.
My people have brought me about, raised my spirit and taught me out, I give, while I take to the streets
Damned these times that bleed on me causing me to loose my victory, strength in my fathers name,  I pray.
Mother against child, brother against brother,  this war,  my soul, You know not what you do,  this I say, truth
Eternity will pass before I sell out, my blood is real, I engrained you all in my minds eye keeping watch
Love for you in me is deep, this I do for my soldiers, the valley may be low the mountain high, yet we grow.
The strong will survive, the weak I will carry, time is come.  I have this dream for change in my people, rise
Honor is a defense for our kind, running is what I did before, Im out,  never forgetting where I came, still.

My Sun

You are to me as the sun which giveth light unto the world making it brighter
I am as the earth to you absorbing this light taking in giving back life
The moon, the great welkin doth not weep for she shines full of joy of night
The stars dance for us like billions upon billions of fireflies across the sky
My skin feels electric as you draw nearer to me, like two halves being made whole
The spinning of the earth stopped for a moment bringing you to me,  like static
You feel like spring time in the winter that has come to full bloom in my heart
In your eyes I see the rainbow in different colors,  you bring new life and such peace
The poetic way you speak found its way to my soul opening doors to mysteries untold
Your great fullness that I love you, I'm sworn to,your humbleness to love me,  I'm bound to
The mountains I would move for you, the sea I would swim for you, nothing I wouldn't do
My love,  my dahling,  for you I would lay down everything,  I am yours  for eternity,  true

Desire

As the waves come in from sea to shore your lips meet mine tenderly so sweet
The moon swollen giving light against the dark of night, no stars to shine
With each crashing of the tide our our bodies thrust in the pallid light
Wanton pleasures kept so long dancing souls unite, a firey passion doth ignite
Sing to me my love but gently in my ear as you take me now,tell me not to fear
I rise to meet each move with you as one,ten thousand horses runing beats my heart
Slowly falling deeper into desire, love is growing stonger born in the night
As the sun rises you look down at me,without words we know we are now complete

Still Strong

So tired of this mindless chatter,won't have my dreams shattered
I cant waste my time on empty space wont let you leave me tattered
I'm free a spirit you cannot break, yes I'm here I see I know I feel
Time changes the wind blows the heart knows yet you sit on your throne
Freedom, you can't touch this, doors open they close then they lock, blocked
Nothing what it seems, people don't know their own identity ,nothing matters
You speak with an honey from your lips, making me succumb, though I will walk away
Powers in me I possess for me to share with only who I choose,you may attest, and still
My path I walk alone, you think you can step into my world, turn it upside down
Beautiful yes you are to me more than any I see,the way you speak, perfection
What is this time this space between two, a line crossed a world entered or left
You don't know me but I'm the air you breathe, wind across your face whispers in your ear
Oh you feel me but you still don't know me , I'm like no other wise beyond my years
I recognize the possibilities of the night the situation of the time, the hour at hand
The melody of my heart you may never know as I say Im free, I dance where the eagles meet
I wait for no one, I will not bend my spirit is strong, I am a woman of substance
I would lay at your feet as your queen shower you with a passion so deep,unquenchable
Take notice of the stars that shine in mine eyes the fire which burns in my bosom
I am the well full of fruits ripe,secrets only one will share, a flower in bloom
The day is long into the night thinking of you as you say you think of me much,show me

My Path

Standing in the field just beyond the willows the sun rises cascading light upon my skin
Ode to the night for dawn is here in such delight I find myself swept away with a breeze
Walking along the path,my path the one only for me, I keep for myself I stop think again
It's just a thought a sweet melody enraptured by flesh entwined wrapped together a tease
My eyes look to the beauty which he possess my earth is moved, my hair sways in the wind
I begin to walk faster,heart racing I'm approaching the city away from my path,I see
Concrete,the cold feel against my feet, I love the noise so loud the hub of the crowd
He is here, from a distance I hear the sound of his voice coming form inside,I'm in
I walk past him as he turns and brushes up against me catching the scent of my hair,breathe
Does he know I have been watching him, dreaming of his touch, his lips upon mine,he stares
Sitting down calm now I drift as he begins to sing to me,he knows, he trembles inside now
Slowly looking away I blush, he comes to me, we dance as he sings my lips quiver,sweet sin
As he gently puts his hands to my face pulls me to him we are now locked deep,souls recognize
Fire is burning mingling together a passion stirred by desire on the edge, loosing control
It begins to rain and I find myself back on my path again, was this a dream, or real

I Am Free

I stand before you bearing my soul,  oh,  how dost thou judge me now?
I,  the welkin full weeping,  you,  the sea overflows and abandoning me
My Echoes scream for mercy's sake angels bend ear to my heartbreak
Oh,  thy hands around my throat I feel them crushing my very breath, depart,  I say!
This day mine eyes have seen true, the wind that bloweth not your way, but doom!
Waking from the wreaking howls the bellows of the hounds from hell, I stamp my feet.
I run, for strength it gathers upon my bones like moth to a flame, I am me again
Loosed from these chains you bound me in, free to sing lovely now Am I, and high!
Reaching for the stars they shine on me glistening as I raise my hands, oh great moon weep no more!
The sea so calm it flows peaceful blue, my vexed heart though once longing for you, happy am I
Shadows find me no more hiding, waiting or watching, with freedom I fly where the eagles touch
I walk my path down off the mountain to the river which flows so free, I sit alone and think of me.
I have come undone, found myself, broke the bonds that held me down, never again shall I let you in.
Ti's a wonderful feeling to be free, a slave to no one, being just me, unattainable unless I agree.

I know You

Shall I live for you and you alone

Shall I give for you and you alone

My time is it mine and not yours, or ours

My freedom have you stole it or hidden from me 

My dreams have you mocked them

Can you see me as I stand In front of you

Can you see me as I run to you for help

Tears they flood the river deep, this I hate

My time will come you will see you cannot hold me

My wings will mend I will fly again sing my song as the Nightingale

Shall I live only for you or shall I give only to you, again I ask

This I ask of you, do you know me, do you feel me, do you see me at all

Can you tell me how I feel,  can you tell me what is real, how my soul reflects

My color do you know, my music do we share, how do I feel when we touch 

You do not know me at all, these things are great not small, important to us all

This is love and how it works, a touch,  a smile a warm hello, but knowing me you do not

My secrets still safe in my heart, my memories never depart, you think of nothing,  this you say

How I know you day by day,  yet long to know more I pray, this is all.

Still I Stay

Dreams are a reflection of your soul

Carrying the weight of truth to behold

Time is eternal waiting for no one

Abyss is deep like mine eyes they see

Truth is hard yet sets you free, no animosity

Forgiveness sacred to you and me, for them

Healing occurs when you allow the sun to shine

My will not mine own still, the days grow shorter

I stay for my faith still so hard from the pain caused

Freedom I long for, soaring I want, my journey far

I'm torn and pinned to this frame, hung on this wall

Moments of fleeting happiness pass before mine eyes

Soon the moon beams the sun rises the days change again

Subtle as a look from a stranger the Autumn wind blows

I feel a warm caress on my skin and run through the Fields

Lingering thoughts of what could be I feel the drop of rain

I begin to run feeling free smiling now, as if I am flying free

Then I wake to be, still here, sometimes lost, sometimes found

God Knows

The river still flows the pebbles are still under my toes and yes God knows
Ti's the pallid moon that hangs in the sky which looms over me hauntingly
Oh madness you call like a lost lover in the wilderness leave me be I beg of you
The billowy clouds that dance above my head I hate now maybe for just today
My sentimental heart has a missing link you stole, as you knew you would
Time for me unbearable though I seem happy and smile for you I know you see
Pain is my friend for a time I allow for a while we comfort each with knowledge
So you know me yes you do and as always I still love only you but why, how?
The brokenness I let you cause is building only strength,everyday a new beginning
I shine even though the sun is not out and it is raining, though my heart aches for you
Your arms still hold me tight you still tell me how lost you are in my dreams, so close
As I sit here on the river bank and dip my feet in I see my reflection, where are you?
God knows I really love you will love you always, you wanted me to tell you where you belong
I am strong, I bleed, I give, I take, my time is valuable my love is pure and wont be wasted

Lingering Thoughts

For all the beauty that I feel I see
For all the beauty within I breathe
These feelings I will not forget
My heart beats against your chest
A perfect match the rise unrest
You fill my mind,  consuming my thoughts
Your smell still lingers on my skin
Your kiss I can not forget so soft
My body longs for your touch again
Though a million moons will rise
I shall not forget the splendor of us
Our love we held for a moment so beautiful
The way you held me your eyes,  the gaze
I miss the tender way you said, "always mine"
I love you, I always will, my edge of desire
Time makes no difference this will not die
Drawn by the fate of undying passion and fire

A memory

My eyes have taken all in the beauty of you which I can no longer possess. These pangs beat as drums against my walls echoing a memory etched upon my soul. Oh how doth my weeping fill the welkin bursting as a rain cloud drowning all land. Why hast the sun not found me she has hidden her light casting weariness. Mine arms still reach for you as the night is hardest it throws it's cruelty at me. Seeping through the corners of my mind I feel you there clawing at my senses Yet my fears over whelm me breaking down my walls crashing into the sea lost. Canst thou hear the tears falling like rain streaming from mine eyes welling up . I have incised a piece of mine heart burying it forever from the ebs of darkness. Shallow is the day now moon light finds me shuttering on the edge of madness. With daggers you peirce my wretched soul as if to kill me daily with your love. Then has fury found me lain upon my bosom smothered me till I feel my ghost. Each star bares a name of which one is yours I shall cast it down and for thee keep it. My meadow has grown waiting the lush of my flower ripened yet you hewned it down You drew me in like a hunter till I succumbed then broke me as a lamb wounded. How weary now my my love is how sorrow mocks me in vain as you stole my sacredness. For only a time the nightingale sings and the cocoon opens for the butterfly and the sun lights. Then thou hast broken the spell of love the power of all that was the shining glow of us. My heart feels that which no one sees that which no one can match how I did let you in. You stained my spirit my soul my life my heart my mind with your love and swept it away. Oh hearken angels hear my cry deliver me from my pain give me wings so I must fly. Carry me over the mountain lay me at the top and sing the whispers of dreams once more.

They Call Me Mississippi

I am a warm gentle rain drizzling upon the heat of your body
Each drop you take in as I open up like a cloud ready to burst
I am as the welkin full of such as these that only you can desire
My lips drip an honey sweeter than that of any you have tasted
Your soul is a sponge to my passion receiving it fully encapsulated
They call me Mississippi,  the shape of my horizon, I make your dreams
I am the one that makes you fall,  as you do I catch you bringing you In
My smell has captured you,  set you on fire bringing you to new heights
The curve of my hips you lay in,  as the sun sets and the moon beams
Sleep has fallen,  taken you,  the river flows,  the stars shine and you'r mine
They call me Mississippi, like a river,  I flow to you.

One night

Though he speaks to me with trembling lips,  I feel his heart race
The green of his eyes brighten when they look at me, this is real
As the endless stars align the heavens,  so shall my love unto thee
You feel as spring when you touch me and summer when you enter me
The rain will fall and we will dance and stain the clouds with our love
We share a secret one which cannot compare, he is the smoldering sun
I to him his earth, I hold the keys to his thoughts his dreams
My flower rare, it blooms for a season, petals tender intoxicating to him
The draw is love, like no other powerful drawn yet cannot be matched
My heart flows like hot lava out my veins for you, so captivated undone
Once in a while Jupiter meets Venus, fire ignites souls engage perfection
One night can last an eternity, one day a lifetime, one dream a reality
A King meets his Queen he knows her, keeps her unto himself forever more

Adam

So gentle meek in spirit yet wild and free but woe unto those who judges he
Beautiful heart that soars in the night casting the sonnets of love into flight
Words are so kind for his pen is so quick he conquers them all for how he has wit
Many will say he is a great many will tell that he does not hate, love his only nature
Solitude finds him on rainy days where he lays so comfortably in his childlike ways
The wild eyed boy who sees through everyone with kindness seeking equality for all
With strong character giving his all a brilliant writer and lovely lad, a friend to have

Two Lovers

The dew has fallen it is time, the heavens are lit with a majestic brilliance

Oh the midnight hour approaches my favorite time, magical things happen

I stand before the mirror brushing my long auburn hair, heart pounding

Silence is golden yet my throbbing pulse bounds ever more clear

The moon has cast it's glow through the window, my silhouette he will see

Patiently awaiting the knock at my door as the hour comes nigh

How long have I waited it feels as if madness has struck, enchanted me

Ti's but a moment in time I think love might exist devour me whole

Drunken by the the smell of sweet perfume I lay upon this bed and wait

Oh how thy hands caress me in my dreams thy lips kiss me softly, my will lost

Taunting me daily with your beckoning pleasure consuming my thoughts 

Footsteps approaching I feel my heart race a knock on the door, I feel weak

The hour is at hand the clock is ticking, it's the magic hour, midnight is here

My lover has come for me to pleasure me with desires, to fulfill my needs
His hands will hold me gently, his eyes will look through my soul and know me
We will intertwine lock in passion embrace like no other so divine, lost so lost
Night will turn into day we shall still be embraced enslaved by the beauty of love

Making Love

I am the one whom you fear to behold, but must
I am the one you long to touch and hold, and will
I am all that you desire within and hide from, but can't escape
I am the one who knows your secrets the dark ones you keep
I am the one you dream of when you wake and your sweating
I am the one when the sun is in your eyes you see me
I am the one who can only fully satisfy your every need
I am the one you call to in your sleep, oh I hear you
You are the one who opened me up brought me to life
You are the one who consumed me with your desires
You are the one who draws me to you, even now I wait for the day
You are the one who pulls me with your thoughts, I feel you now
Our souls are dancing in the heavens waiting for embrace
Our spirits are longing to trust, be lost enraptured in passion
Our bodies hot with anticipation and intent of the hour of when
This is the time of now, the beginning of beauty, love being made

My Garden

Safe behind the walls of my own creation I linger
Laying atop tussled grasses intoxicated by sweet perfumes
The lavender, roses and lilies, fill the air my senses moved
This my solitude watching the butterflies flit and dance
Birds sing their sweet melodious notes, Serading perchance
Dreams are made in this enchanting lair, only few are privy to
In the distance I hear the varied notes of the Cicadas song
As evening approaches bringing glory of color from the sun lovely
The Nightingale begings to sing her song to my soul, my love
The delightful eloquenc, tears that stream from my eyes the joy
I am weeping as the moon shines her pallid light, for loves delight
The sea it swells from all this of my bosom, magnificently doth fill
The stars seem to dance upon the milky way, ending a perfect day
Morning comes dew on my skin, warmth kisses me gently as I rise
The dragon fly startles me and to my surprise, alas you are here

If I Could

If I could, I would make you see me, all the colors that I am
The melody in my heart is playing an orchestra of love
I am as the sea giving rise to the earth and expanding all within
Overflowing my bounty like wafts against the great wall of tides
Emerging from the uninhibited ways of yesterday I wait for thee
Breaking down the barriers of time, escaping perpetual fear I flee
If I could, I would make you see all the the beauty I behold inside
My mind, body and soul, for you I would give them whole
I am like no other, created by the potter molded from clay by his hand
If I could make you see, you would ask me to stay, never leave
You come to me in the night, in the early light, I feel your breath
The kisses we shared sealed our love, our souls did unite you see
Waiting is hard for this is true, to looking into your eyes I saw myself
Until you push my hair back again kiss my neck, I sigh all the day
If I could make you see, how I'm longing for you even now
If I could I would show you now, what you are to me, you know how
If I could I would not hold back, and come now, If I could, I would

Again Lost

Do you see,I bet you do
Can you hear me now,open your soul
Your pain is swelling inside me
Day forges with the moon
Temtptress of the night comes for you
You feel it, I bet you do,I know
Take me down,no more deceit
oh my weariness grows in vain
Can you taste it,sweet now
You plead for more shall I give in
My very insides squeeze together
As my spirit swoones,I contemplate
Do you want me, I feel you here now
Again, again, again you say,consume me
Lost we tremble in ecstasy
Do you feel it now,I bet you do
Lost , again,always

Pain

The amber lights glow along the waters edge
I drift endlessly out to sea darkness abounds
Only the moon lit so small no stars tonight
The waves gently breaking the sound echoing in my mind
I dare not dive into the abyss it seeks to swallow me whole
The dragon of the bottom deep lurks under circling, waiting
Ancient cries heard from afar, fear in my mind now I'm told
Salty air passes my lips the sun beats down on my cracked skin
Days have turned into night again, stars I see twinkling, cold
Nothing and yet everything, gone, how I long for the fields of green
Where am I now in this vast sea, where are the crags that I sat upon
Agonizing heat by day coldness by night, the hollows of mine heart bare
Swept away by the tide into an unknown world against my will, sold
A bargain price more precious than gold, kindness so rare so siren
Drifting asleep so deep, am I dreaming? I can't wake up.
It is raining I feel the coolness on my skin, my tongue, my face
I cry out no words form no sound I make no movement, to late

New Love

In the night I hear you calling out my name
Like a spider you carefully weave your web
So I am the moth drawn in by the flame
Tiny billows of rain trickle down my skin
I'm running now faster, breathless no shame
Evading all others and save only you
Bringing abundant love with whispers of hope
Embracing the realm of fiery passion anew
Shaking I glide like wings upon my feet
His touch so gentle his lips so sweet
In the distance the nightingale sings so true
New love is born on the canopy of the dew.

Deep, "Your" feelings for Me

Deep,the way your eyes look at mine
Deep,the rush of adrenaline in my soul
Deep, how close you press against me
Deep,how far you take me down
Deep,how much I am inside you
Deep,the thrill I feel inside you
Deep, for the regret I feel for the hurt I cause
Deep,the way I am lost in you,consumed
Deep,the way you are lost in me,consumed to be deep.

You Will

The sun washes over me warms my skin through
I look past the horizon my dreams carried away
The sand I put my feet in feels cold,yet it's hot
My shattered feelings scattered among all kenosis
Even unto the heavens my soul crieth out with no sound
The angels hear my sigh my anguish,my madness true
You broke down my walls,once in you boasted
Conquering my fears you made me trust,with sway
I feel you still haunting me though I try not
The sultry passion of once will not be,exist no more
This grip you have on me I shall break you will see
When you find me in your dreams I am running away
Gone now the static is failing, trust is broken.
I am more than your girl on the mountain,I am everything
You will never stop thinking of me, you will miss me.
You will see me everywhere ,you will dream of me.
I will not be there.I do not look back but I see.
I will feel you still feeling me the draw, the pull.
You know me, I know you this thing this impossible will.

Someday

I know my strength comes from within
Yet my bones cry out even weak now
Darkness covers the crevices of my mind
Shattered hope never more will be mine
Time comes for me to reckon with
Gone the days of tenderness and joy
Lost are golden memories erased by pain
Fear has found his home gripped so tight
Tortured undeniably,breathless from this fight
Anguish giving over to the hatred of it all
Promises made and promises broken,departure
My heart is frozen barely beats,not for keeps
I gave it all and still you wanted more
Someday time will stand for me I pray
I can smell the sea reminds me of love so free
A place I once was lost and free,by the water
My mind drifts back to a place in time so lovely
The sun still shines and the stars are bright
Oh how I dream to go back tonight, my love
This barren heart, my wretched soul can't be dead
Awaken me from slumber this dream I am having
Tell me my true love ,my passion is waiting for me
Oh great moon sink back into the ocean, bring out the sun
I need this vision of wrath gone and love to be here
Trickling down now tiny tears , I feel warmth on my skin
My heart is beating faster ,the blood is no longer cold
A whisper in my ear, is this madness? Are you here my love?

The Girl on The Mountain

The girl on the mountain you want is me
I sit here longing for you under my tree
The day escapes me night encompasses me
Stars light my path to find my way down
My way back will lead me to you, oh I am
The girl on the mountain waiting for you
My ways are such you cannot resist my love
I feel you calling on the wind that blows
I hear you on the mountain where I stand
I'm coming, you feel me as I call to you
Wrapped in your vision of what is to be
Nearing you now my heart skips a beat
Sun is rising as we meet in the meadow
The first kiss of two lovers complete
I am the girl on the mountain you need

A Perfect Vision

Two souls yearning to touch,embrace
My thoughts full of fire of him
Time stops and leaves me breathless
My soul is mingled with his, enraptured
Passion like no other,given consumed
As we kiss our hearts begin to dance
He promises his gentle trust
Breaking all the rules I let him in
I rise to meet him, I am his now
He fulfills me, completes me
I remind him where he now belongs
With a whimper he says, always.

Drawn In

He is like static to me
Wakes me in the night
Drawn in by his power
One touch makes me whole
His kiss leaves me breathless
The touch of his hands soft
My heart pounding with passion
He is dreaming of me I know
I want to lay in this abyss of love
My will not my own surrendered
Lost in desire given to the night
Trapped in this flame we bask in the glow
We have this night this we share
Just between us always to care

Complete

The beauty of love and all it's splendor it fills my soul complete
A tacit smile a soft kiss a more than chance when these two eyes shall meet
My heart over flows with delight soars as an eagle taking flight
An autumn moon to dance under, the stars above to gaze upon into night
These perfect things are you my love,passion tenderly you give is mine my love
Daisies in the feild lifting their heads smiling at the sun while we lay and linger
My love how can I ask for more than the beauty of these moments with you

Our Tree

Time fades away memories of old, casting new light to behold
Springing forth from from depths within are calling like the wind
The tide of surging waves ensue and flood my soul ,I'm anew
Morning light shines so vivid casting her light upon the earth
Beauty unfolding before my eyes as I journey down this path
How the singing of the birds do lift me,reaching now for you
Oh to walk these hills to climb this mountain still,I soar
I am free to be myself my love thou canst expect no more.
You will find me under neath the old oak tree one Sunday morn
Waiting,writing maybe sleeping or dreaming the day away.
Until my dahling,keep loving me,I'll wait beneath our tree.

Lovely Dream

The sun has nearly touched the horizon
Longingly I lay beneath it dreaming
The heat from the day still hot upon my skin
Soft breezes blow gently caressing me,
Passion welling inside hot desires unfold
Wondering now if he's thinking of me,wanting me
Slowly now he comes to me, brushes my hair back
Places his hands on my face and kisses me deeply
I shudder,hot dripping with sweet sweat
We make passionate love as tears fall from my eyes
It's just the rain he says dahling, wipe your face.
Laying for hours under the tree then I awake to only me.

The Dawning

From the dawning of time you've heard me roar.
Speaking in Languages understood by all
Beckoning unto mysteries of hope ensuing
Hatred amongst the weak, futility craving seeks
Haunting waves of destruction bares names of men
Pearls and beauty mingled with blood and wine
Whores and flesh corrupted minds, dragon fury not far behind.
Departing silence heard in streets, empty waste barren
My name you cannot know for you are blind,and fools.
I come like a whisper with a mighty sword,oh swift
You perish daily for ignorance sake,the great city of devour
The stars are mine the moon earth and sun, now is the hour.
Rising in the distance look to the hills from the North I come ~

Hope

Grace beauty eloquence
Dreams echo happenstance
Brokenness not weakness
Vision light abundantly
My wings invisible yet are there
You cannot break me for I am broken
Power comes from within
Strength Honor Glory
Have you not heard the story?
Peace Love Forgiveness
Joy cometh in the morning
Love pure compassion
Hope eternal everlasting

I love You

I love you so much Ti's your Heart that causes mine to beat.
I love you to the point of madness when your face I cannot see.
I love you now tomorrow, yesterday, and until eternity.
I love you because it's destiny written in the stars above.
I love you not because you ask me but out of sheer nature Divine
I love you as the sun gives beauty to the world without only darkness and death.
I love you like two souls on fire that cannot be quenched unmatched by desire.
I love you like passion calling in the midnight hour unleashed, wild and free.
I love you like the deepest sea and the roaring waves of their strength.
I love you like the gentleness of the purest soul born of a child.
I love you even when you say you know me not and still you look upon me.
I love you because I am love in all it's purest forms I bleed, I am, I want I need.
I love you because you mirror me, your soul attracts my love, in thee I strive to feed.
I love you because without you I cease to exist when all I am is in you alone.
I love you like the warmth of the sun that kisses it's earth in the early dawn.
I love you like the ocean that swells with fierceness and shows mighty strength.
I love you beyond any words I can comprehend more than days of this earth.
My love I give without doubt, shame, remorse or fear to you my love only you.

The Shadow of Death

Yea tho I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, it stings me not
I find little peace in this  temporal earth, shrouds of heartache cloud my mind
Corners of darkness line these streets, ignorance lies in wait for terrors sake
Liberation of freedom's right spoiled by hatred by the mighty,taken from the weak
Disparities of scourge and sinful lust, eaten with the filthy hands decked with pearls
She says come, dine take of me and you will see all revealed to you, envy, misery
Souls with riches flowing in drunken state, captives lost and deceived, grace gone
Promises broken dreams destroyed, weak cries out for mercies sake, wandering lost
Mindful of this changing world, watchful of this dragon beast the fire it hurls
Fighting with sword in hand for soon to head to promised land is victory for me
Still I watch and wonder why they seem content in filth beckoning not on high
I sing in hope the blind will see the ignorant learn and hate will love, conquering evil
I love your soul your light, the breadth of all that is within, with all my might.
I pray for peace to fill you now loose your mind in humbleness, strengthen, inspire
Love is boundless knows no end, for eternity it shall be hope for all to see, be free

I am

I am as the Butterfly aloof and carefree.
My spirit guiding me shimmering in moonlight
Serenity lives inside me, brokeness a friend to me
I love you more than words can tell, I shudder to unveil
Forever I float on an endless sea, adrift in dreams
Searching night and day longing to be carried away
I sing these sonnets for you in the midnight hour
My soul engulfed in beauty, pain and gentleness
The heart is full of want and desire,but truth will win
I am as the butterfly,I long for the sweetness of your taste
Tenderly I pray for love to find it's way to your heart for me
A new days dawning as hope reflects it's light,be still and wait.

The Stillness

In the stillness of mine heart it haunts me
Direction gives way to divine inspiration
Deep calleth the deep, shallow bury the dead
Hinds feet seek high places stumbling not
Tide has risen against the wall crashing still
Mighty winds brought forth out of anger doth blow
Yet strife continues to rise beyond the gates knocking
Pearls and swine are cast in fire thrown in streets
Humbleness is comely now waiting passing through searching
All time of borrowed love and money owed, hate, waste
The haunting stillness of mine heart laid open discerning all
Memories of yesterday times before and to come what will bring
The quite hours of night the stillness it looms a deep darkness
Quickly as the the Sun comes into forge I rise take notice of the victor
The stillness gone for all is due the noise brought apparent now.
With staff in hand collecting souls opening his mouth for to take his due

The Nightingale

For me to be as as the Nightingale free to sing , trembling ecstatically
Visceral love, shrouded heart knowing pain, yet I wait on thee
I have searched and none compare for perfect is the soul you wear
Sonnets sing I hastily cry aloud my love boasting earnest rivalry
Enraptured by the splendor moon as she shines her peaceful light
Journey captivates my mind while takes me by the hand I pray
Seasons come Fate wont chance,Ti's powerful beyond measure
Oh to be as the Nightingale free to sing, free to sing, free to be
Timeless Currents wash away the pain and sorrows of long since
Awakenings of passion come flowing through giving me hope finding you
Sing Sing Nightingale the song of love to me, all the days forever love, sing to me.

Trust Me

Hot as the western sun his hand
Yet gentle as a lovely flower
Soft as velvet are his lips to mine
Dancing in the midnight rain
Summers heat of lust we make
Taunting teasing caressing  take
Soul to Soul climax is made
Binding now shall not be broke
Forever two will now be one
No more sorrow no more pain
You are to me as the stars above
My heart is yours it's in your hands
What is left you have it all
Trust me now I am  truest love

A Friend In Me

I saw you on your mountain high tears of pain buried inside
I prayed for peace to fill your heart and comfort to touch you
I knew not from where you came, only knew your given name
My burdens honest and true a decade or more of loving you
Many a time spent walking through your peaks and valleys
Watching over you, trials of disappointment came and went
 Bended  knee I spent wondering why I was called to see
You have a heart of truth and love, a gift that's given from above
The honor broken will be healed, Ive prayed a thousand days, and still
Angels sing a song of hope, for love will endure again you'll see.
Time is careful to mend the heart ,while prayer lifts the spirit high
My friend cant you see, you were sent to me,why not believe
The day you sat and drank your spirits till you cried yourself to sleep
I prayed with you till morning light, held you tight and new just what to do
I feel your sadness, your love and know you will soar again, don't deny
The rock you stand upon to gaze out unto your land, you will again be free.
Take refuge  and comfort in knowing you have a friend, always in me.

The Midnight Hour

I have loved thee from the moment I first laid eyes on you,  this is true
You did not have to speak your beauty encapsulated every part of you
I have wished upon the stars for your love to come unto me and shine
Beckoned in the midnight hour till the angels heard my earnest cry
With scents of rose,  lavender and vanilla I adorned myself.
Waiting for ensuing passion to consume my every being
Tenderly you come to me , and tearfully I accept all of you
I have waited many years for this truest gift and fate hath brought
My desires are here to stay, how can this be? I waited day by day
Have they been in front of me peering through for all to see but me
Wretched is my fear now, I worry that it's near, drifting away
Shall I stay? Entreat  me now or cast me aside, forsake me not or keep me here
Oh how confused the corners of my mind are fighting against my haunted head
Tortured loved I thought was dead has clutched me now  and wont let go
Where hast my true love gone, my heart my soul my perfect love, the one I waited for
The clock it strikes the midnight hour, the clock it calls the midnight, hour I hear it now.
How the noise it feels my head I can only wish for dead the poison of the rose is bitter.
The lavender's smell is putrefied, alas I drink vanilla tea and think, he wont remember me
My body aches of hot desires of once kindred spirits two hearts did share, two lips so sweet
The clock it stikes the midnight hour, the clock it calls the midnight hour, I hear it now.
Ti's sweet and lovely pure, ugly too, oh poor pitiful you, I really love only you
Do you hear the clock as it strikes the midnight hour, the midnight hour maddening hour

Running

Sometimes I run  fast as I can through the fields across my land
I wonder if you even know how thoughtless one can really be
Mountain tops my favorite place to hide away my aches and pain
The trees they seem to whisper in the wind as i sit and linger within
Even night will fall and so it shall not worry me I find peace, refrain
Solitude is for the soul, refreshing comes, a cleansing brings a new
Dawn will find me still upon my rock, found , I've made my stand
These days they find me wanting free as eagles soaring high above
My spirit longs for freedom leaps for joy yet I find it caged and bound
Running, always running through the fields chasing dreams that will never be
Rainbows and moonlit nights, seashells and shooting stars, daisies and lavender
Roses,the sweet smell I bask in the glory of the sun, the beauty of all I've found
Timeless are the treasures of love, yet Ti's a cruel fate when it is gone have none.

Chosen In The Night

Night is calling deep is calling, yes I hear you there
Is it darkness Is it light lurking in the shadows?
Winds of hollow down the valley calling me out
Running, I cry into the night why hast he chosen me?
Memory of the dawning morn of beauty rising up
Hope of ever lasting love eternal grip me tight
Shall I rest a while and catch my breath or haste?
Should I answer not my call, my victory to this fate
My lamp Ti's full of oil to guide me through the night
Hurry now, I think I will, I wake, I run now as I pray.

Nothing Holds Me Down

Sometimes I want to run and never stop
Spread my wings and fly see where I land
I look around me I long to be everywhere
Nothing can hold me keep me down
My spirit is free my feet never touch ground
I'm careful and light, I love without fear,Ti's true
My Gifts are about love, peace and harmony
You don't know me so don't judge me please
Victory is mine bought and paid for
The sun still shines on me even at night
My song is pure it comes from my soul
I lay it before him the Angels doth behold
This day is not mine but his, he lends to us
I take and give and he gives back ten fold
I cry humbly to the master as he forgives my sin
 I have come undone without and within
Creator of all he is to me and my delight
Water to my body food for my soul
Healing to my mind,yes my worries my woe
Nothing holds me down when I have the masters hand

My lovely

What do you see when you look at me are you thinking now of what will be?
My eyes are hazel and hold the key to your dreams of you and me don't you see?
Yearning emotions stirring deeply causing the very essence of my soul to feel warmth
Do you long to taste these lips so sweet so soft? My love to have you now I feel Id weep
Intertwining souls make love, but flesh there is no match so perfect is this sweet divine
When I shall take you in my arms at last for never to let go your beauty I will behold
I dream of you night and day I smile for you along the way, do you think of me ?
How I long to hold you now, I feel you wanting me, It burns through my body staining me
I know you dream of making love to me you wake me whispering my name
Oh how I feel you, almost if you were here ,wish you were, my lovely, my dear.

The River Deep

When I go down to the river deep I take the things of late to keep.
This time is mine this day is yours I pray It lasts till sun doth sleep
The tiny pebbles glistening in the sun reminds me of how your hair did shine
 Mountains overlook the valley  here where bonnets grow we laid upon
 Grass is thick with dew my love, the dark is coming fast I weep and weep
My dear I love the river deep, It holds your memory there to keep, my love
I know you'll wait for me, I'll find you soon,  beneath the river deep.

Greed

They stand upon them high atop a heap so deep they nearly rot
Laughing all the while as they shove their pockets deep
Champagne toasts, and whores do boast and gaily nights abide
They come to you and seek you out with humble forbidden lies
Many say to you, he is good,  trust him, he's the way,  for I know him
I tell you now,  I can't get up for I am on the bottom of this pit,  you see
Taken in by brightly colored lights and flash and promises of hope
Down to where I fail to save my very last of cares, gone are my ways
Mocking treacherous deceit and wicked ways of  vanities of prejudice
Oh how they take and take the more never filling up wet appetites
We starve down here the little ones with nothing less than crumbs and fright
Heeding to the call of sanity I cannot find my way, my woe is great it finds me broken
Helpless in disparity we cling to thee oh Lord rescue us impoverished souls from they
Rulers killing dreams, wreaking havoc lapping up our joy, squandering Innocent lives
I taste their lust for greed, is spills down over me,  I feel them crushing me, and you and we.

Willows Weep

Willows weep oh how they sway beneath them now as I lay
Thy love, I dream of sweetly comes to me, as I pen my thoughts away.
Tiny whispers of butterflies gently press against my cheek, a kiss it gives so sweet
So grand the day to lull away ,whilst I lay and gaze upon the blueness of the sky
Of all the beauty in the land and sea I tell this true your beauty comes not neigh
I wonder still if sun forgets and stars shall burst their light, will thou shine so bright?
As flowers grow in beauty in the spring with their sweet savor you are to me, my love
A garden sweet and pure, a place to lay and linger in, and bask the night till day
Adorn me with thy kisses cover me with your warmth ,lay with me forever until
Willows weep and willows keep, willows underneath our tree we be.

Searching

I stand and gaze  into the sea, lost, I know it summons me
Calling out to deep, of mine poor wretched breaking spirit
Time to weep no more ,Oh how I long for never draining
Waves against the crags ,I taste the very salt upon mine lips
My sorrows great for you my friend have not returned
I search both night and day, watch the clouds roll away
No ships come, no ships go out by noon nor dawn this way
Tempted now to thrust  me in,  and join my love in time
But my heart quickens with beats , I save hold of mine feet
Climbe down to shore, my time is not yet ,I wait thus the more

Empty

Oh sleep is not kind to me, will not find me
I lay here empty, fragile ,torn and betrayed
My incessant love for thee has been in vain
Dreams are gone ,vacant lost, quiet solitude
Tattered thoughts of once desires, wont ensue
I long to touch you still, my body aching, pain
Why my soul feels so deep sorrow ,will it go away?
I retreat but still no rest for me just weariness
Shall this last forever or will it end I pray thee?
A gift I gave to you and shared my very nature
Now you trample with your carelessness and pride
Ti's fear you have I understand, I know you very well
You see I know your name, I've seen your soul, It's beckoned me

The Transgressor

Disparity hungers out of empty bowels as dried up river basins
Thousands fly the staunching sky swooping down for prey
Alone they cry gnashing, clenching, thirsting unable to take rest
Forgiveness swallowed by the dragon of deceit, laid waste
Transgressors  murdered, hewn down by the armoured beast
Darkness runs into the day, a never ending site dismay
Mocking shameful lusts of blood spill down unto the land.
Hope was buried with humanity today love was swept away
My people left me here to die, they told me this would happen
I only took what was mine and yours and mine and theirs.
There is no place that I can hide to wander from this woe
Screaming night and day the fears that never end, help me now
I cannot pray, I wish could. my troubles are greater now, Please
I beg of you, yet you hear me not, they foiled me I tell you so.
One more chance I pray to you, I will follow where ever thou  go.
The voice of many, you will see in days to come the price you pay.

My Mountain

Oh the beauty of this land and the grace that it bestows
How quickly Time evades me as lay upon the peaks at dawn
I think My master made for me this wondrous land Yorkshire
Created for me to see whilst I lay upon these knolls in solitude
The sun doth caress me soothingly as I pen my thoughts away.
My peace my sanity, I find it all up here my secret place
My love I think of  you when Im here , my cat my family
I clamour down from mountain top, and breath the glorious air
In my soul freedom reigns, I know I feel it there release is come.

Waiting

Today I gave my self away
Tomorrow another day
Yesterday forgotten gone
A memory  over hum
Chances come but once they say
Miss them every time
Running breathless hoping
Praying waiting watching

Two Perfect Souls

How the night has found me hidden in the corners of my mind
Drifting endlessly once again into another place and time
My body trembles with desires that only you can know
Shaking , rising to meet your body as it's pressed to mine
Gently tears flow now ,is this the way? you whisper low.
Lovers kiss so deep , two souls become one to keep
Together passion builds beyond just lustful thrills
Morning comes still interlocked two hearts bind
All I am I give to you ,all I have I share this still.
It seems you have walked right in from my dreams
I waited long yet I would wait a lifetime
This my love ,the beauty of, two perfect souls

Homeless

Why do you stare at me? Have you never seen Hunger? It is me everyday.
My name is is emptiness.
Look upon me if you will the streets whisper my name as I walk by thirsty.
Spit at me I know I am ugly, but once I looked like you.
Buildings of empty doorways shelter me at night, bags  and boxes I carry to lay upon
Walk on by it's okay, I wont tell.
The noise is my friend I would be lost without it, I have come to enjoy it finding solitude.
Sometimes, not often kindness finds me.
Coldness I am used to,  sleeping in the weather my skin is hardened by this pavement I lay on
Keep yelling at me cussing,  why?
Oh God , why is this world so cruel, I am just living not hurting anyone, yet they hate me.
Throwing stones, robbing me.
Never any where to go but a cold bench an empty street at night, nothing and no one but the lost.
Mongers, haters, selfish filled with pride.
Night after night they look at me, picking up papers I was once like you, I had what you have.
Jesus haters, Jew mockers .
Once I lived in the house on the hill, my house burned the oil in the lamps you waste, cars, screaming.
Preachers stealing money.
How you all waste, my piece of bread I savor, water to me is a treasure,  coffee rare, yes I am hunger.
You politicians and whores!
Wonderment never ends lies never stop, trusting is always beyond human grasp,  oh the sirens
Sleep is my woe, sleep is danger, nightmares, so hungry,  so tired.
War, peace, prayer, forgiveness.
My world, these streets.
Walk on by, they all do.

By : ChristiLynn Foss  First written in 1982.

A Mother & Daughter Love

This very breath I gave to you
You did not ask, still I made you
My body weak with labor I endured
My spirit strong to see it through
Bonds created,  not to be broken
All good and lovely things are true
Angels whisper a new song at birth
Rejoicing happily at thy sight
How I wonder in delight
Rosy cheeks and curly locks
A miracle to hold and rock
For a cherished love of mine
Forever my love through out all time
These two  Hands will hold in yours
A place so deep no one else can keep
Only a Mothers heart for a daughter's reap
On this day you were born of me~

The battle is O'er

In the distance their cries I hear I bare their pain and woe, Ti's grave
Fields are muddled with blood and bones, the souls of many are gone
The hollows of my mind are flooded, filled with screams of horror
Canst  thou waken me from this dream, I beckon unto thee?
Nightly lanterns burn for  the  wandering lost at sea while it gapes
Trembling, now I fear the master forgotten these shackles on me
My blood is cold the night is long and yet I  pray still the more
Mercy I beseech thee O hear me now for my spirit is come undone
As the Angels sing to me, I feel enchanted only moments sake
With visions of white  and doves in flight ,my heart is pure for thee
This  time  is won I have no breath, as for me this battle is O'er.

Do not Deney me

You cannot deny me you know you hear my cry in the still of night
The longing you feel against your body is me embracing you tight
I know you feel my soul is tied to yours for they mingle in dreams
I feel you call to me in the night a hundred destinies wont keep me quiet
This madness my mind is in is torture freedom  not my friend, but prison
Waiting at the sea whilst you stand upon your hill,where eagles take flight
Shall I come to you ,dost my heart dare trust in this  new great journey
For I have been astonished by your beauty from within and out you beam
I shall love thee with all that is in mine heart and wait until the end of time
As the angels beckon in the heavens so shall I sing unto you a new song
I will wear a pendant so you will see and it will shine as  a prism unto thee
The moon and stars will guide your way, until we meet we shall not fade
A promise I have made a promise I will keep ,my love tarry not to long.

Dawn

With every breath I take I feel you inside my soul
The sands of time will not fade till I have you to hold
My love shall not perish till thy face I will see
For I know we'er meant to be one for all eternity
Is this just a dream my true Love, will this be?
Your captivating smile has melted my very heart
Tenderly I long for your touch, your embrace
A lovers kiss as our passion takes place
Dawn awakens me the sun shines through
Alas I was dreaming, twas sweet my love of you.

My Soul

I love without fear as one blind
My hands are open to your touch
My way is goodness and kindness
Mercy is my nature I give it with such.
Freedom is my envy for all mankind
I long for the purest of love
My way is gentle and meekness
The scent of a rose in the early morn
The lavender blooming on the hill
The prayers of many who cannot pray
I am passion deeply thus this way born
The mighty come against me and they fall
I am covered by his blood, kissed by angels.
Blessed by the Father Son and Holy Ghost
My soul is fire like gold it burns a light
My shield and sword as I stand tall.
Ready for battle though I am still.
I hear the Angels sing like a mighty host.

Upon This Rock

Upon this rock I kneel and pray
My tears flow endless night and day
Haunting calls from the dark I hear
Where unto these shadows I fear
I cry seeking refuge from this pain
My soul is weary I fear in vain
As the angels gather triumphantly
Victors march with swords in hand
Blood is spilled out unto this land
Upon this rock I kneel and pray
Bring my love to me back this day

A Childhood Memory

I was five and it was a sunny day with a few puffy white clouds in the sky and out the back door I went to lay in the grass. We lived in a white two story home in a nice neighborhood, we had the biggest yard on the street, so I thought, really everyone had big yards but our yard really big and the woods were behind us.
My best friend lived up on top of the hill from me  I met her in kindergarten, we played almost everyday after school which was just about to end .
As I lay in the grass staring into the sky wondering about Jesus and God and the things I had remembered from Sunday school, I saw a butterfly, a "flutterby"  as Christopher Robin called them, and I thought Lord if you make me a butterfly I could fly up there and see you.
I would ponder for a long time about how I could get there to see God and birds would fly over I would ask him to make me a bird because I wanted to come see him so bad and bounce on those puffy clouds.
Days went by and I could hardly wait for school to get out so I could get home and lay in the grass and look up in the sky and have a little talk with the God . Then out of no where I heard a voice speak to me It was very soft but like a fathers voice strong but quiet. I did not think it was scary or strange I just would talk to him like I would talk to anyone else and I would tell him all about my day  and ask him things and he would tell me things ,some things that I did not quite understand very well at first.Then I started to have dreams many dreams some were very scary about wars and about floods and earthquakes and so many people dying I would wake in the middle of the night screaming. Then I would talk to him about these things . It went on for years .I went to church I think when I was 12  I was preaching for the fist time was in the youth group and on the prayer chain and if you have not guessed by now I went to a church that was a full gospel church.
My parents did not go to church, but made us kids go. My aunt Clara who was like my second mother to me was so very inspirational to me growing up. She is a Christian still and is 80. She is also a great Artist.
These Memories of me when I was younger  are like they were yesterday. I still remember lying in the grass , I can still see those same puffy clouds, and I can still hear the Lords voice as he speaks to me even though sometimes I may not always do as he says.
It is hard these things sometimes he asks of me. I know that my job is  different. I know that I am probably not where I should be.Journeys are hard to make sometimes. They require  so much of you and you have to be willing to give all you have when you make your journey.Once in a great while we can take the wrong way and end up on a wrong road and find we are in a place we feel broken or abandoned or maybe lost. Then that is when you pick up and move on and journey  till you find where your feet are meant to be planted and rooted. Without roots you will not grow. I feel like sometimes I am not growing anymore, I have let my roots get knoted up maybe I dont know I will have to work on it. I know I have a big job to do.My spiritual journey has really  changed in recent times, but I know it is calling me.I have a heart so full of love it is hard to contain and I know I need to help those that are in need.Some days I just want to lay in the grass and thank God for the beautiful flowers and trees and butterflys and birds and all the lovely people he created and the puffy clouds ... and sing to him like I use to do as a child and he would sing back it was so lovely, I knew I was truly loved by God.

Time Fades

I have longed  for the warming of the sun on my face, these nights cold no embrace.
Time is cruel takes no care for heartache and despair, brokenness neigh my friend I love.
The whispers I hear in the depths of my mind remind me of my youth, the memories of you.
Spellbound cast down riding on the waves of a dream, slowly awaken empty and abased.
Entreat me now my love I would pray,for my time doth slip away marvel not at my life.
Moons have come and went yet they will come no more for me, til judgement day I will see.
Upon the golden shores I will stand and walk unto the promise land,I shall soar upon high.
Remember not my pain, nor sorrows for they are many burdens I bare for those who wait.
I will remember you, all of you and those who have touched my life in so many ways.

Even IN Death

The waters wash upon my feet I stand here waiting at the edge for my love.
The night skies are dark  and the stars are bright I seek your face I pray.
Oh the depths of my soul still is haunted and bleeds at last by your memory
My Song is carried by doves in the early morning over the ocean it brings
Time will not heal this pain nor encompass this agony left in mine heart.
How I long for the swallows to lull me to slumber that I may sleep in peace.
The rain is like ice upon my flesh and coldness in mine throat I bare it not.
When death comes to me I shall greet it with joy for then I know Ti's you I"ll  see.

I Stand Alone

I stand alone, in this place I chose not to which I was planted.
I am beauty ,grace and strength , a high tower for those seeking refuge.
Mine arms are long, and full and carry the burden of many who come.
The birds they sing to me a love song in the mornings after a rain.
My colors change with the seasons, but winter I have not much shelter.
Lay down at my feet and take comfort, I shall shade thee from the sun.
Night blooming Jasmine brings the humming birds to field I stand alone.
The dew wakes me in the early hours and calls my branches forth.
The sun warms me  turning my leaves a golden yellow by autumn.
 The moon and stars, they light my way through the night lest I should  sleep.
So come, and take shelter here with me I will give you rest under this my tree.

To know me

You don't know me but I am the wind you feel gently brush across you're face, though the wind is not blowing.
I am the dream you have and don't know why the one you want to go back to sleep and finish.
I am one with vision, one with burden , with hope for the world in my hands I keep giving back yet
no one takes.
No you do not know me.
My color is Peace,  I speak to the animals and they lay at my feet,  I give them shelter from the unkind
You cannot comprehend my heart,  it's not mine own I have sworn it to love,  belongs to love fully.
No,  you do not know me,  my name is kindness,  my mouth drips humbleness it gives gifts to those in need.
My footsteps are light you do not hear me coming,  yet I come,  my voice is soft,  yet my spirit is strong.
No,  you do not know me, yet you will.
I cannot be defeated,  though you should seek to kill my flesh,  my spirit shall not die It will live forever.
No,  you do not know me.
My manner is comely and true,  goodness,  grace,  and forgiveness are my life yet I wield a sword  clothed in valor armed with might.
Now you know me, hush as I come for you in the deepest of night

My Dream

My flesh is soft as I caress it whispering into the stillness of night
My heart pounding gently, slowly as your name across my lips I speak
Our souls connect and intertwine like a fire igniting out of control
Yet our eyes have not met the tenderness of skin nor sight
I hear you though you do not speak, I feel you though you are not here
Ten thousand fleeting horses running full speed is my heart when I wake
My dream now, Is just a dream now, my dream come back again tonight.

My Love

These stars are my tokens of love I spew out of mine heart like a fiery sea of love .
The ocean contains my tears I have wept for you whilst you have long since  been far from me.
The sun holds my love as a brightness which will shine upon me when the beauty of thy face I then behold.
The moon holds my sadness  as I dwell in the secret shadows the dark  places, the crevices
My shelter the trees, with their outward arms reaching for the sky as if to kiss it with gratitude .
My love my heart is full it is spilling over like blood flowing out of my veins shall I die unto thee?
The Path I have taken the road has not been easy yet I gladly bare the burden and scold unto you.
The wind it carries my sweet savor to you  my whispers of  promise, I pray you not tarry long
My love is pure tried by fire, burns from within my soul deep inside this I promise only for you.

Music & My Relationship with it

Music to me is the very essence of my being it would seem it is part of everything I do If I am praying, riding in my car working out, cooking bathing, laying in the sun and always when I am washing my car! I feel it from my head to my toes. I am most moved by music more than anything else. Not just one particular kind of music but all kinds! I love it all. I love to dance, oh my goodness can I get down, I think I  was born to boogie. It must be the romantic bug that has crawled in me and won't leave. I think you have to have passion to be able to dance and to feel  music and let it take hold of you and move you. It is the same kind of way I am when I pray I give over to it. I guess I am the type of person who puts my soul into everything I do. My mother used to tell me I cooked with my soul. I am just now figuring me out, and I am a force to be reckoned with I think, not sure what that means but I am sure that I am meant  not to be handled the wrong way. I think one day I will be a free spirit traveling this world doing my thing helping people, listening to music and trying to enjoy the rest of my life. I do love to travel and I plan to do more! I think very much I want to be free. I am just to much for anyone person to understand, problem I think. My mind is always creating and my heart is always reaching for more. Music seems to sooth me more than anything. I spend a lot of time helping people with their problems, which is my goal, my job and that is fine but my time has to come.  I undress shut my door to my very large bathroom I designed get in to my wonderful claw foot tub with a nice bottle of wine turn on some slow jazz or blues relax and enjoy my view out my window..ahhh now that's whats up.
Have you ever danced in the heat of a summer rain to a slow jam? You have got to try it, but try it with feeling, warning: all fakers will be rooted out, I know. Just like cooking you have to put some soul into it, a little feeling in it, magic.
If you are not a born romantic you will not enjoy dancing in the rain, much less all that comes with it. If you are in a good spot Hmmmm, thinking.. okay now go do  some  music surfing. Music is my friend, it should be your friend too. Music connects people in so many ways. Find yours. Enjoy someone with a great tune. I promise you will not be disappointed.

The Power of Love

Well how to love the people who hate us is tough right? It is a tough job to love for some people period for they have never felt compassion,nor do they know the term empathy. So many people choose to judge one another about the way they look or the way they dress the religion they practice the person they choose to love , all these things are forms of prejudices and that is a form of hate which is opposite of love.Our creator has taught us that the greastest gift is "love" it is the best thing we can do as we live and breath on this earth that was on loan to us, created for us by God, spoken into existance. It is not for "man" be him a preacher, preist, pope, or phropet, or, anyone to judge another man's walk with his spiritual creator. We all will have a day of judgement one day al of mankind will stand one day before God, but it won't be on this earth, it is not for man to judge and say who is right or wrong, you have one duty and one duty only and that is to LOVE everyone even your enemy . I know it is hard, so hard, and if anyone has the right to say that it is hard it would be me, for I have been through some really trying times. I have been through the wilderness  my friends I will tell you that . I spent a long journey fasting and praying many a time looking for spiritual guidance, the longest fast I came off of was 21 days after the first 7 days no food I was fine the rest were a breeze sort of but the spiritual cleasing that came with it was amazing. I gained so much clarity so much insight , I was able to forgive some people that had hurt me so deeply that I did not think I would ever get over and now I can love again... It was a long journey. My friends understanding the power of love is knowing Gods wisdom and it can take you to knew heights regardless of what religon you are or who you are he does not judge "you" it is a heart matter your soul is what he looks at not your outward appearace or preferances, but what is your heart? you can not lable a HEART.